Chapter 22

It had been two weeks Jared had been on tour and I couldn’t stop thinking about him. He called me every day, telling me how the shows had gone, the sights he’d seen and said how much he missed me, but it wasn’t enough, I needed him here with me. ‘Only a month to go’ a thought. Hmm ‘Only’.

The past fortnight had gone so slowly and now I’d have to wait even longer for him to return. I’ve never been like this over a guy, never.

I had to distract myself tonight somehow so I picked up my phone and text Chris and asked her if she wanted to come over and hang out. Yeah sure, I’m on my way now she text back.

I opened the door ten minutes later to see Chris standing there with DVD’s, chocolate, vodka and ice cream. She could probably tell from how I’d been acting the past two weeks that I could do with cheering up. I got some glasses and we sat down on the sofa and mixed the vodka with some cola.

“You miss him don’t you?” she said directly.

“Yeh...” Was all I could manage before trailing off, not knowing what else to say. Why do I fell so helpless? Why do I miss him so?

Chris put her arm around me and drew me in to a hug. A small amount of relief set in. I never let my guard down and show my emotions but everything just got so much I needed to.

As we both pulled away she asked

“So how’s their tour going anyway?”

“It's going great.” I replied. “They’re in Tokyo at the minute and have seen loads of beautiful buildings and gardens. You know what Jared’s like with his sightseeing.”

A smile broke across her face.

“You know him so well.” She said.

“Yeah well I do love him.” I replied. She turned and looked straight at me, gawping.

“WHAT?” she yelled.

“I don’t know.” I shouted back at her, looking just as shocked myself. “Oh my god it just came out!”

“Well do you then?”

I paused for a second at this question. I had asked myself the very same thing a few weeks before, but now when I really think about it...I do always think about him...and he’s always the first person I tell when something happens...and I can always be myself around him...and he is gorgeous...and I can tell him anything, even if I’d killed somebody!

After thoughts rushing through my mind, only one work came to my head.

“Yes.”

“Oh My God you have to tell him!”

“What just call him up and go ‘oh by the way Jared, you know you’ve been waiting for ages for me to love you back, well now I do, bye. What a great conversation that will be!”

“No not like that, nicer.”

“But that’s what it will sound like if I do it on the phone though.”

“Well what are you going to do?”

“Wait I guess.”

“You’re going to wait to tell someone you love them?”

“Yes!”